Which foot gives the right start?

Hey everyone... It's been a while, a LONG while, so much has happened, happy, sad, good, bad, just about every single flavor in the whole existing emotional rainbow.

Then again while a lot happened, it's time to move on forward right? I'm not gonna go into details of the past, but of a recent event that has happened to me just a few minutes ago...

Has anyone experienced what I would describe as a bump into pure fortune? Perhaps I might have, but one wouldn't know unless it's serendipity (in case you don't know about this word, it's defined as "The gift of making delightful discoveries by pure accident"). And I do beleive it happens sometimes, we're just blind by being unfortunate most of the times, we don't give luck a chance. I mean, who would sit in front of his computer at 1 a.m. in the morning dwelling through the Internet when all of a sudden in one of your messenger systems (MSN or Yahoo in case) someone pops up, by accident or ID misspelling and starts off with you on a nice conversation, probably meant to someone else but fits just right into a dialog you would definitely have with someone, or feel to have with that someone that very moment?

How about being too lost in that misfortune that you don't easily realize that what's happening right there is the medicine to your cures for all the emotional sickness you've been whimpering about for days? I beleive that happens to us every single day of our lives; we don't exactly open our eyes to realize the whole scenario, but just fit the details we like about it, and discard the rest.

So the dialog went on, and it was fun, until she realized she had been talking to the wrong person all along (but to me felt right, get my point?). So she just apologized and closed everything off... BLANK... POOF... dissapeared. Why does that happen? How do make the next move after that? WHICH ONE is the right move anyways? I just went ahead and apologized back (through e-mail) to her for not letting her realize she had been talking to the wrong person since the very first minute.

I don't really expect a reply (though one would wish... why does fun has an end? The answer to this simple riddle is that if it didn't had an end, fun would just be FU... get it?), just being myself makes it all simple, and for the moment's worth I sure did take the whole buck out of its value.

Yet I wish I could just grab the whole buck, instead of just 5 cents, out of every single moment I'd live in my life... that would be interesting, cause then I wouldn't have to trip and fall over and over, I would just know exactly all the schematics to a good life. Grabbing the whole buck, getting your money's worth out of a good time is not that simple: You'd need to digest everything that happens through that moment.

So serendipity this... Did she reply an hour later? Yes she did.

Did I reply back? Gimme your best guess ;) (though by now the answer is simple isn´t it).

I'll share you the real secret of enjoying a good moment: NEVER generate any expectations over it, just let the moment HAPPEN by itself. If you expect, chances are you won't be getting what you've been asking for. Secondly, beware that a good moment has it's troubles either at the beginning or at the very end, while the ripe stuff, perfectly fitting for the moment, is in the middle, the edges are very important: CHOOSE always the right ending, with the right beginning.

And let life happen okay? If you don't, and you let life go by itself through time, chances are... serendipity will barely happen with you.

So, to that person who gave me a right start thought wrong, thank you tonight for letting me grab the whole buck out of our personal conversation! Maybe it all ends here, it all might go on, I don't know. We'll just wait.

I hope I did make the start with the right foot.

Check you all on the flipside!

The longest journey...

Well, back again, trying out my creative writing. I seem to enjoy pretty much what I'm doing at the moment, writting stuff that comes out of my picked out brain.

Tomorrow (actually later today, it's 1 am here) I'm gonna have the oportunity to go to one of the highest places in Guatemala: Tacaná. Ok so it's work duty, but still, leaving that aside, it's a long journey, way off road to a far away place in this beautiful country.

I find myself thinking, how many journeys have I taken really? The ones that fall so deep in your heart that every time you just even drive by a certain scene, or dust off some equipment you used somewhere, reminds you of that special time, which you took a trip to somewhere, and memories just start falling into place. I figured, I've had my dose of journeys in my early life.

They aren't just "journeys" to somewhere specifically, their meaning can be found deeper than just a memory, it lies within the nature of reaching farther, testing your skills and fighting adversity in your finest hour. And what's best is that it doesn't require measuring time, nor distance, nor resources used, it just requires understanding, comprehending deep within you why was that journey made.

In the end, we all have done this one way or the other. Sometimes in the company of a special one, sometimes on our own. I would guess that on our own is where we test what we really are made up of.

As humans we tend to be more nomads, less sedentaries. Why would that be? It's because we try to live with ourselfs in our well settled and restricted environments. But some people aren't just satisfied with that. Some people yearn for the journey, it's in their blood; curious enough, some might look at them as masochists, getting themselves involved in the most difficult situations in any way you might see it. I respect these people more than settled ones, because as they go throughout their journeys, they develop a higher ambition towards different goals to meet. Few make it until the end, others just let their hopes and dreams die as they walk through, many of them looking back and retracing the wrong steps taken to their apparent "doom".

We are left blind by negativity sometimes, specially if by trying to get somewhere you just see a dense fog ahead of you. And this just doesn't happen unless we start regreting all the done deeds in the past. Acceptance is a virtue few acquire as they go forward, obviously looking towards making a change for themselves and their environment.

My life has been a very complicated journey so far, and I've tested many times how far can I reach; I just seem to get stuck most of the time in that fog, not realizing that no one has the skill to look past that fog, though the ones that keep on walking through it understand one thing: They live on the moment wisely, for each step they make they are certain is the right one towards the top of the hill.

That's what clearly divides the success from failure itself. In life, love, friendships, professional issues and business itself, different thick fogs appear before you. You just gotta beleive in yourself in that moment, that it is all possible with faith, and hope of your own self making it to that desired goal. We even do it naturally without realizing that, and so when we look back we can see just downhill, and guess what? You're at the top.

Believe in yourself always, have great humility kept in your soul, accept others and accept yourself through others, forget the fog in front of you, remember the bumps left behind, and keep on a straight walk towards the top of the hill.

The longest journey is still to come, when you see there's more past the sky. The sky is not the limit, the only limit that exists is YOURSELF. So let go of the idea that there's a limit to reaching dreams, and you will see those dreams appear consequently.

So it's time for me to journey into life, I'll let you guys know if I reached the top.

Wish me well!
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PS: Thanks to everyone who has left a comment in my blog, you can't imagine how happy it makes me that I can reach someone with my words and my thoughts. You know who you are, and what you are to me so all I can say is that I thank you lots, it means a lot to me.

Cool Fact!

Post traumatic experiences of self defense while being sick: Uncounsciously we curl up to a fetal position, just "to feel" better... ahh don't you miss being in your mother's tummy? No? Well if you do that, then your subcounscience does miss that at least; It's the mother nature in us giving us protection.

The end is the beginning of the end, or the end of the beginning?

My last day of the whole semester, and YES I walked the plank and sank with the fishies, I ran the last quarter mile and couldn't finish at all. Oh well, that's what I was expecting anyways right? At least I do feel proud of myself for taking that last risk, instead of sitting in the middle of nowhere with my arms crossed. Interesting enough, I don't feel discouraged to end my journey here.

See, there are special times in your life where you are given many choices, it's like a whole buffet of post-failure choices, but it's not cooked nor prepared already. So you want an omelette? Here are the eggs, the ham, cheese, whatever you like in it. Or shall I cook it for you? Will it taste better? Or wouldn't you like it to cook it yourself, find out your own taste?

Life is like that. We are given many post-choices either by success or failure. The problem is that not many out there are fit to prepare a self-made omelette of a choice made. Some just take the easy way, contact an expert "chef" to prepare it as close as it would please them. But what if you'd like ketchup or some other condiment in it? No no no, here is the real deal with making your own.

Sometimes we're just not prepared to deal with the post-choices life gives us, but there's no other way around it, life just keeps on going, it doesn't care at all if you catch up and stay up to date, or be left behind with the rest. In the end, growing up no matter what age, it's all about experience: a key word in any road to success.

We all have a certain taste for new experiences, no matter how good nor how dissapointing and bad they are, it all sticks inside that big head of yours. And we learn from that so that we perfect our motives and our strategies to achieve goals. We are stubborn by nature, and sometimes find it hard to take decisions based on our OWN opinions. We are always in that persistent doubt and ask everyone, even the dog "Should I do this or that?". If you suffer from this kind of syndrome, ask the mirror instead, in the end he's the one that has the answer your looking for.

I think it's all better if you do get hands-on with the options you are given, obviously taking the best choice that will enrich you with knowledge, and push you ahead a road to success. Make an omelette yourself, so what if you're not a cook? There's always easy learning, and that is by taking matters in your own hands. Keeping up with the required tasks for the given choices will definitely give you a better taste of your real self, rather than having things done for you. Trial and error, the omelette will taste better each time.

So ask yourself, where do I begin? And where does it end? (I'll give you a clue, it doesn't end, it just gets modified).

Enjoy your omelette, bon appetit!